FtM MindBlown: I got an Idea

FtM MindBlown:I had an Idea

This is my Idea:

Not to say that I came up with this Idea all on my own. But it was an idea that came to me. In the car, on the way home from the Theosophist. While I was trying really hard to understand why I was going throw what I was.

Being Transgender.
Being Transgerder and out to your Parents who will always love you, but never support you...
Being Transgerder and having problems at school

Hi, my name is Griffin. I am sixteen years old, I live in Canada with my mother, father, sister and two dogs. I have wonderful friends and way to much time on my hands. School is hard but I get buy. I have both ADD and Dyslexia. But this is not a Pity party. Its not some stupid rant. Its me trying to make you understand what FtM means.

The one part of me I hate and wish I could change more then anything. I am Transgender. Not only that but I am Gay. I am Transgender and gay. (To help you all out that means I like Guys...)

Griffin whats Transgender(TG)?

I am glad you asked. TG is when you feel, believe, and know you where born in the wrong body. As for me I am a Boy... trapped in a woman's body. And it sucks. Being TG is not a choose. No one in there right mind wood ever, ever choose to feel like this. Never. I dont understand why they would.

Griffin why would no one choose this?

Because Dear one, no one would want to feel like I do. To feel like the one place you dont want to be is your own body. The one place you cant escape. Its like your trapped in a tiny box and you're trying to beat your way out, screaming and kicking. But no one hears you, no one sees you. Its called Dysphoria and its a real bitch.

Dysphoria? Grif whats that?

Dysphoria or to feel Dysphoric can be defined in the dictionary as being unhappy or sad. But its always a term used among TG's to discrete how they are feeling about there bodies. We, I, dont just feel unhappy or sad about my body but I hate it.

But Griffin lots of Teenagers hate there Bodies. Isnt that normal?

Dysphoria is a whole other level my friend. Its not like Anorexia (and am I not saying its harder or easier.) Where you look in the mirror and you hate what you see. Most when I look in the mirror I see a boy and I love it. Its when I look down at see fat lumps of useless flesh hanging on my chest that I hate. Most girls are proud of there boobs. I hate mine. I am a cup size C and I hate it. Most girls are proud to have curvy body and nice hips. I thank god everyday that I dont.

Thats not even the worst part. Al least its not for me. The worst part is know that I could fix this ugly thing I am trapped in.

Sex Change...

God I want one so bad! But my parents are never going to let me get one till I move out. But my Parents are another story, one I will tell. But later.

Anyways I must go, if you still dont understand TG let me know. Inbox me with questions and I will answer them. I dont mind at all. I will be posting more of these. I'll talk about my Dysphoria more and my coming out story. The shit I go throw and the BS I have put up with.I'll talk about being Gay. I am going to talk about my religion (Christian) some time. Until them go listen to the song: Crawling by Linkin Park. It will make you understand more.

That was my though:
To make you guys understand TG.

Love you all,
Griffin